here;
stealing smiles.

just close your eyes

7:54 pm i wish i didnt have a heart. i wish nothing could be broken. all good things dont have to end.
but it was due anyway. could tell that you didnt love me anymore.so i shall count it a sucess if i can make it through a day without crying. todays a failure.
and no one cares.
jamies scared of me. she told me.
i dont have a split personality. i have moods. if i had a split personality half of my memory would be missing half the time coz its with the other half of me. and if half my memory was missing i would be able to pick the one where i can forget all about him and i wouldnt be crying now.
i dont know why i blog about my feelings. no one bothers. and at the end of the day i shall just hope i shall see God in heaven.
ive been praying that you'll see him too.
but there shall be no sadness in the kingdom of heaven. no sin, no nothing.
so i shall be happy there. happiness seems like a dream. or a song enticing me to death. either way i want it. but dying is not nice. im only thirteen. who knows what;ll happen in the future. perhaps i could fall in love again. scotch tape should work pretty well on hearts too. im rambling i know. but somehow i just want to write it all out. let it all out. and my tears shall run dry. that'll be cool. no more crying. yay. ive been thinking and thinking and crying about whether i should return everything. no more memories. no more tears. but i cry just thinking about it. so whats the point?

this is a retarded post. dont read it.
the end.