here;
stealing smiles.

just close your eyes

11:30 pm and now about today.
so i went to vivo againand i finally have jeans!
yay!
only bought a top and jeans. but that was alot. jeans are ex. =/
and i went to watch spiderman 3. it was pretty cool. " you always have the choice to make the right decision." (: truetrue.





as the movie starts,
the cold kicks in.
the sound system roars
and the memories win.

i wish you were there
to take my hand
and be like you promised
to the very end

but you left halfway.
only 5months of my life.
though leaving memories.
never forgotten inside.

i need your hug
my head upon your shoulder
watching only half of the movie
like we did with every other.

but as the movie screen flickers
so do my memories of that life.
i now return my attention
to the screen's spun web of lies.




it's cold and im missing another
though youre running through my mind.
im cold and im loving another
despite the memories that i hide
they're cold but they're got each other
and in each other take respite.
its cold and you're loving another.
despite all the things i've tried.




gawk i cant take this anymore and sooner or later i'll tell him that i love him. but he wont be interested. to him im nothing but his kid sister or his friends kid sister. or his kid sister's friend. that sucks. and its like nothingg withn me will ever be full again unless i tell him. wait. not that. unless he loves me too.