here;
stealing smiles.

just close your eyes

4:39 pm back beofre i knew that he even liked me, i was seriously believing that perhaps. he might be the one for me after all. after so many people, he would be real.

we're staying just friends.

i feel a mix of disappointed and relief. confusing, conflicting feelings.
disappointed coz i do want something more, i do like him and i find him veryvery intruiging and interesting. endearing sometimes even.

but relief coz im not sure if im ready for another boyfriend now. i've to ride my life out. ride this phrase out then i will. can. get another boyfrend.


somehow i feel like waves are coming. but i'm just letting them wash over me. i cant handle another wipe out yet.

and yet, i cant wait to start surfing again.