here;
stealing smiles.

just close your eyes

2:31 pm & if you dont love me, please, just tell the truth. it'll hurt for awhile but i'll live, please.

& if you maybe do, what's happenning now? are you going to just walkaway again, like you did before? i dont know whats heppening now. i can read your sms and feel like smiling and crying at the same time. its like ill be happy talking/ smsing you and then any random person who says the word girlfriend will wake me up. its like im just a reserve useless stupid and only a mere backup. you said give you time. i am , but everytime i wake up i feel like running away from everything. to try and see if leaving the world would leave my feelings behind too.
everytime i wake up it feels like hell.
then you make me smile again and ill tell myself, ill give you time.

but how long?
for?
and why?

& so. hello hell, im back.

dont pity me, i dont need that & never will. all i want to know is that you love me truly, but you dont always have to get what you want. lifes like that & i can learn to deal with it.


truth?????