here;
stealing smiles.

just close your eyes

10:27 pm she ditched me for months.
she made my life hell for alot more than once.
she screwed me over and made others think i was a bitch.
but i still love her, different from before, but i can still say i love her.

yes, she ditched you.yes she screwed you over. yes, she made your life hell. but if i can forgive her, and if you truly loved her, you can forgive her too..
so why not; stop torturing yourselves.

i thought you were my friend, that i could talk to you but.
i guess not.
its just kinda screwed i mean. please.
i dont know what to do when you pull everything like that on me.
you didnt have the intention but.
i dont know.
arent you my friend?

i thought he was using me, just to talk to her.
just to step over me like everyone else did, all for herherherherher.
i get so bloody sick of it sometimes.
but what if hes not?
what if hes really just him, not some jerk centred on getting the girl he liked?
help, this is so confusing.

both of you are saying this, saying that, saying all these things that just contradict each other, so whatthehell. am i supposed to believe? both of you are my friends, i saw the worst side, i enjoyed the good side, ive laughed and shared at least one of my fears with both of you.
what do i do now?