here;
stealing smiles.

just close your eyes

9:09 pm things that ive been moody about today:
-cancelling on wanyu for our outing.
im so sorry wifee; i'll make it up to you, i prooomise. really. sorry sorry sorry...
-remembering how it was last year; an almost guaranteed spot in singles to being degraded to second doubles.
-having lost and played like bullshit
-being late for training coz i dint get the message.
-being so exhausted the whole day, my eyes felt like lead.
-not being able to message you or anything for so long, it feels like we've broken up.
-no hugs.
-not being to see you there, when everything sucked and i wanted to cry.
-looking and feeling like a giant who should break everything she sits on according to laws of gravity.
-not having the pink grip that looked super cool but ran out.
-having been scolded by coach for going to the toilet.
-having it made to seem like im worthless, just another player to add up to tally the numbers.
-not bringing my glasses today.
-losing to edward tan, two sets.
-not getting my phone today.
-not being to talk to anyone at all about how i felt.

ah.dfdfdfdfduck.